And if I perish, I perish.
Esther 4:15-17 KJV
Then Esther bade them return Mordecai this answer, Go, gather together all the Jews that are present in Shushan, and fast ye for me, and neither eat nor drink three days, night or day: I also and my maidens will fast likewise; and so will I go in unto the king, which is not according to the law: and if I perish, I perish.
Ahhh I just love this story, as you may have previously read the initial message from Mordecai to Esther, but this time Esther replies Mordecai. She says if I die, I die! What does this remind you of? The three Hebrew boys “Even if God won't rescue us, we will still not serve you” such courage and faith. I am forced to think, today right here.. would I die for my faith?
You see, it’s easier being a Christian when you don’t have to suffer for it, how many people do we know of who left the faith as soon as life got hard? Some left the church because they lost family members. Christ says, whoever loves his life will lose it, which means we ought to surrender our lives to God. The disciples of Christ all died as martyrs.
Maybe I am being a bit extreme talking about death, but let’s talk about our day to day living, how do you show Christ to others? In our day to day lives, our “perishing” could be losing friends, changing our dress code, changing our interests like what we watch on tv, etc. We all have that one thing that we hold onto dearly, that we think 'I will watch this last episode and then confess'.
God is looking for the modern-day Esthers, people who will not count their lives dearly. People who will obey God rather than men. I know I am very far from this standard and would love to be like Esther and I know, had I been in the same situation; I probably would have tried to reason with God.
Anyways, in the end, Esther takes on courage and she decided to approach the king. She finds favour in the eyes of the king. I would like to think from this story that God rewards faith and bravery. He never lets us down when we show faith in him. So today I want to have the faith of Esther, I want to be brave and say, “God I will do whatever you want me to do, and if I perish, I perish” May God help me and you to reach that gold standard of faith.